John, why do you feel the need to have to believe in something? You appear to have this need to believe in something. Why is that? Don't you think you are strong enough to face life as a mortal and a man? Why this need for a supernatural being who watches over you and care for you after you die?
Is it fear that drives your need (and those of others) to believe in something?
I am just curious.
It really has nothing to do with thing you said, but it is relly not for me to say.