Inside a Lucid Dream? I see, hear thoughts and beings in the form of Demons that scheme. They wanna bury me, I'm worried, I'm losin my mind. Exploration of my other side, perceptions of the outside looks more dirty. Reality is more real in pain, reminds me I havent got away. Tranform to a plane, touch outer space, still feel the same, so empty. Hard to be meek and innocent, while being hurt within, a scar always there. Its equal to a beating, from someone that you thought cared. Felt by the souls eternity, spirits depleting. Got to escape I'm sorry. Look down the barrel of my nine and my vision's blurry. Fallin to pieces, am I guilty? I pray to the Lord
but he ignores me, unfortunately cause I'm guilty. Show me a miracle, I'm hopeless. I'm chokin off marijuana smoke, with every toke it's like I'm losin focus. Fallin to sleep while I'm at service, when will I die?
Still they wanna bury me, I'm worried, no need to lie.
I pray to God I don't scream when it's time to fry. I put the pistol to my head, and say a prayer. I see visions of me dead, Lord are you there? No answer... an thats the answer, tells me am I lost cause I'm lonely. I thought I had friends but in the end a man dies lonely. Nowhere to run I'm in terror, adrenaline rushin one to his caretaker. A closed casket at my funeral and no one's there. If I was, is there a future for a killer, if I change my ways? Regardless, it still doesnt promise me the next day, nothings fair, makes one heartless. They wonder if I'm hellbound... well Hell
can't be worse than this, cause I'm in Hell now
I'm gettin, threats to me, comin from my enemies. And, in their dreams it's Hell where they sendin me. And fuck the world cause I'm cursed, I'm havin visions of leavin here in a hearse, God can you feel me? Take me away from all the pressure, and all the pain
Show me some happiness again, I'm goin blind. I spend my time in this cell, ain't nothing well. I know my destiny is Hell, where did I fail? My life is in denial, and when I die, baptized in eternal fire, I'll shed so many tears. Now I'm lost and I'm weary, so many tears. Reminiscing on my past fears, been thru many hectic years, it appears that I've been marked for death.
My heartless breath. My life is stressed. Shit is scary, how War for Peace legendary? And most times unnecessary. It all seems useless born from nothing, returning to nothing, filled with agony.
I'm suicidal, so don't stand near me, nothing but worlds pains within me. Take it, soak in it, like Jesus, I'm Stigmatic, a scream that pierces infinitly without no one hearing me. I die with nothing changing. My every move is a calculated step, to bring me closer, to embrace an early death, now there's nothin left
There was no mercy on the streets, I couldn't rest. I'm barely standin, bout to go to pieces, screamin peace. And though my soul was deleted, I couldn't see it. I had my mind full of demons tryin to break free. They planted seeds and they hatched, sparkin the flame. Inside my brain like a match, such a dirty game
No memories, just the misery. Paintin a picture of my enemies killin me, in my sleep. Will I survive til' the mour'nin, to see the sun.
Please Lord forgive me for my sins, cause here I come...
Lord knows I.. tried, been a witness to homicide. Seen drivebys takin lives, little kids die. Wonder why as I walk by, broken-hearted as I glance at the chalk line, gettin high. This ain't the life for me, I wanna change. But ain't no future right for me, I'm stuck in the game. Trapped inside a maze, in a time thats not mine. See this Tanqueray influenced me to gettin crazy.
Disillusioned lately, I've been really wantin babies, so I could see a part of me that wasn't always shady. Don't trust my lady, cause she's a product of this poison. I'm hearin noises, think she fuckin all my boys, can't take no more. I'm fallin to the floor; beggin for the Lord to let me into Heaven's door
shed so many tears.
Enuff of this stuff...change the focus to rise above.
Passionate rage, forcing me to find a way out the cage. To let it all go means taking control, while taking yours.
Started from humble beginnings, remembered a rebel in my ending. Like a secret, I'm a seeker for the answer for living. So why waste time, every second I'm closer to dyin'. As a Human being, gotta try, attempt to rise, while I got time, since the world would rather pass us by. With a body and mind, do more than just try to survive. Maybe leave something behind. Combined spirits grasping with iron hands on my ambitions, I begin to climb. Out this pit of self pity, transform adversity to ambition then look back and smile, traversed many miles not stopping for nothing. Times made me cold hard, wondering, if giving a helping hand is worth something. An eye for an eye scratch mine I scratch yours is what I'm learning. Not compassionate, only empathic. Understanding, seeing others struggling, I cant stand it might as well do something about it. Got me wanting to commit an act of kindess, tho not righteous. Just time to time get something right done, to shines the best of us.