Sometimes, when I am sleeping - it seems to me like I am awake. I am in my bed and my eyes are open, but I can't move my body. Well, I can move my body, but it seems like only my "spirit" is moving.
I'll try to explain it better.
This morning, I was staring at my door from my bed and I decided to get up, but I couldn't. All I could do was think to get up, but I couldn't will my body to move. Actually, I think I did (at one point) go allthe way through the door and down the stairs, but never left my bed.
It can be quite unnerving when I am lifting my arm in front of my face so that I can look at my hand, but my arm is not moving. I can feel myself lifting my arm (or moving around in my bed; or even getting up) but I'm not actually doing so. It's like I'm paralyzed or something. Like I'm stuck inside my body and I can see what's around me, but I cannot move.
This mornig, I even felt myself get up and move around the room -stretching out my body and whatnot, but I was still in my bed. It is so hard to explain because it's like I am 2 selves.
One part of me thinks that I am awake and trying to move around and another part thinks that I am asleep. If I were to guess now, looking back on it all - I'd say that I was awake, because I can see my bed and the room vividly. I cannot move though, no matter how hard I try. Well, I feel my body move - but I can't see it move. That's the best I can explain it.
It really freaks me the F*** out and I need some sort of explanation. I only woke up this morning because I "screamed" as loud as I could and I heard (and felt) a low sort of growl in the back of my throught. Usually I can't make any sound at all. The scream was not futile, because it woke me up... but it certainly was not a scream.
I'll try to explain it better.
This morning, I was staring at my door from my bed and I decided to get up, but I couldn't. All I could do was think to get up, but I couldn't will my body to move. Actually, I think I did (at one point) go allthe way through the door and down the stairs, but never left my bed.
It can be quite unnerving when I am lifting my arm in front of my face so that I can look at my hand, but my arm is not moving. I can feel myself lifting my arm (or moving around in my bed; or even getting up) but I'm not actually doing so. It's like I'm paralyzed or something. Like I'm stuck inside my body and I can see what's around me, but I cannot move.
This mornig, I even felt myself get up and move around the room -stretching out my body and whatnot, but I was still in my bed. It is so hard to explain because it's like I am 2 selves.
One part of me thinks that I am awake and trying to move around and another part thinks that I am asleep. If I were to guess now, looking back on it all - I'd say that I was awake, because I can see my bed and the room vividly. I cannot move though, no matter how hard I try. Well, I feel my body move - but I can't see it move. That's the best I can explain it.
It really freaks me the F*** out and I need some sort of explanation. I only woke up this morning because I "screamed" as loud as I could and I heard (and felt) a low sort of growl in the back of my throught. Usually I can't make any sound at all. The scream was not futile, because it woke me up... but it certainly was not a scream.