I don't know what to call it, but I've just had one of the greatest experiences of my life. I'm completely sober right now, before I start I should say that.
My parents are fighting as usual so I went into my small computer room. I closed the blinds. I shut off the lights. I turned off the computer screen and speakers so there was absolutely no light in the room. Then I started The Beatles, Abbey Road. I lay down on my cheap little couch and just silently lay there and listend to the entire album straight through. I only moved to flip the album over. Completely sober here, I saw things as I silently breathed to the music that would envy an herb trip (though, not other trips). As I was listening all of sudden I got hte wierdest feeling. The only way I can explain it is that I felt like the answer to every question in life was right in front of me and I knew them, but I didn't know the questions. They weren't tangible answers, they were just feelings. In the course of one hour I have lost all cares in my life. Any sexual frustration present is now gone. Any frustrations at all, gone. Any wants, needs, desires or lusts - gone. Everything is gone. I just am.
My parents are fighting as usual so I went into my small computer room. I closed the blinds. I shut off the lights. I turned off the computer screen and speakers so there was absolutely no light in the room. Then I started The Beatles, Abbey Road. I lay down on my cheap little couch and just silently lay there and listend to the entire album straight through. I only moved to flip the album over. Completely sober here, I saw things as I silently breathed to the music that would envy an herb trip (though, not other trips). As I was listening all of sudden I got hte wierdest feeling. The only way I can explain it is that I felt like the answer to every question in life was right in front of me and I knew them, but I didn't know the questions. They weren't tangible answers, they were just feelings. In the course of one hour I have lost all cares in my life. Any sexual frustration present is now gone. Any frustrations at all, gone. Any wants, needs, desires or lusts - gone. Everything is gone. I just am.