Natural High

[Yonescoh]

i think they call your discription of the experience - "being in the world but not of it" - like the post about the fish in the ocean. It is my own experience that it is not a pervasive condition in most people, but there are enough people with similar experiences that it is not totally lonely either.

Anyone who has studied Zen and has experimented with the concepts of such philosophy should be able to recognize it.

It is a secondary difficulty that we have to resort to words to share experience- so we can never be totally assured that it is the same thing, but i have found that appreciating the gift of observation and neutrality to externals that you have been given is all we have to do

Ever heard of the Tao Te Ching?

"Chapter 1

The Tao that can be spoken of is not the eternal Tao.
The name that can be named is not the eternal name.
The nameless is the beginning of heaven and earth.
The name is the mother of the ten thousand things.

Send your desires away and you will see the mystery.
Be filled with desire and you will see only the manifestation.

As these two come forth they differ in name.
Yet at their source they are the same.
This source is called a mystery.

Darkness within darkness, the gateway to all mystery."
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That's EXACTLY what we are talking about here.

 

[Yonescoh]

Sounds like rapid cycling bipolar disorder.

Go get a psychological evaluation or see a psychiatrist. If you think you're gonna harm yourself or someone else go to the ER immediately. A week on a psych ward is a whole lot better than years in jail or death. Just a thought.

This is not bipolar disorder. Bipolar disorder is characterized by cycles of extreme euphoria and severe depression. His condition is completely different.

 

[Intelligence-Bolzen]

Mmh.
Recently, today, I've gained back my character. It's seemingly impossible but I've lived without a constant and clear sense of myself for the last about 4 years.
In these highs, I seemed to have
A) Been able to use my intelligence, somehow, without having the emotions behind it; I felt this incredible urge to work on something and think about things, and felt really unable to relax, probably, it was a really feelingless state
B) Lately - Haven't reported that yet - Been on some kind of inner LSD trip, where basically I felt emotions not evoked by anything. Really....it felt like Christmas, watching an amazing musical, some experiences with friends of mine, all at the same time. And I had a strong imaginary world...not necessarily sensemaking...but it seemed I was able to look into my own emotional world.
I was somehow feeling my inner "themes".
C) Urgh. Didn't gain too many mankind-important thoughts unfortunately. Probably, since my conscience wasn't all there.
D)An almost egoless feeling, where I had this extended field of vision, and everything was exciting to look at. But...couldn't relate or react to things in a usual way, I believe, the relationship-level was gone.
->bullying? Self-critic so strong that I could suppress that?

So, I did have feelings...but they were messed up...often very subtle, weak...or all in one, some kind of feeling of peace....confused...only partially me. Not able to relate things to memory or old experiences, usually.
Yeah. I like the fish-comparison.