Cris said:Lori,
No Lori, it is only those that let their emotions and imaginations rule that make you think that way. You’ve only ever experienced your own imagination intensely encouraged by your emotions.
You're wrong about me Cris. I abhor the type of irrational behaviour that you are suggesting...especially in myself. I'm a woman, and I hate it when I see myself acting like "the typical woman". I think the "typical woman" gives us all a bad name. I'm actually most attracted to objectivity and discipline and law. I'm a left-brained person, and have a mild case of ocd. I'm a math whiz, and enjoy logic puzzles as a form of entertainment. One of my teachers described me as a little human computer. I'm not a creator, I'm a computer. I have an aversion to imagination because it is false. I hate lies. They turn life into nothing more than a movie...for entertainment purposes only. If you live according to lies, and telling lies, you make your life worthless...to you anyway.
Listen, there is an entire body of recorded musical works from this guy's band to back me up here...and a lot more. They're on their 7th record..the last went platinum...they've won an mtv award and another...what some would consider more prestigious even. There are all kinds of witnesses. There will be fruit from what's happened to me like nobody's ever seen fruit. I'm so excited. Young people coming to know Christ like they should, but have never really been given the opportunity to before. We're going to touch people that organized religion would shun. It's time for a revolution...and I'm so excited to be a part of it. The time for sitting on the fence is over. The time for playing house with God once or twice a week is over. The shit is about to hit the fan, and I'm all about it. I just can't wait to see what happens next.
I went as far as possible before realizing the futility and the absurdity of the Christian concept.
It is pretty far out, but it's also logical, and according to science and law and everything that is observable and experienced. What particularly do you find to be so absurd?
My approach to almost all things in life has been direct personal experience. I have no problem now seeing through the brainwashing of religious institutions, but I didn’t have that ability when I was a child. But was there something of value beneath the brainwashing – that was my pursuit.
That's good to know. That's how God operates too...through personal experience. That is why religious institutions can not give you what you need. What you need is personal experience. All that an organization can give you is a place...some testimony, if you're lucky...some Holy Spirit inspired preaching, if you're lucky...some fellowship, if you're lucky. Truth is that I don't believe in luck...and God has taught me many valuable things outside of the walls of organized religion. Think about Jesus' experience within the Temple when He was alive. What did He do there? How was He received? In the Gospel of John, where did Nicodemus seek to meet with Jesus personally, to talk about being born again? Do you understand the meaning behind their conversation? You should...it may enlighten you...if you wish.
My most sincere advice to you is to not give up on your pursuit, because it is a noble one.