Most of the baby boomers (like myself) have indeed been brought up in a public school system that purports to "allow" all beliefs. In fact, the system we have has only allowed an atheistic view of nature. It has treated any belief NOT FOUNDED IN REASON as anathama in our public school system.
And the rest of your post illustrates why this is the case.
I have come to trust that God will eventually draw me back to him. Now I can't get away from him-I believe. Science discovers what there is. I have come to be much more a Platonist than an Aristotelian. The mind may create-but God will be there saying-"See, isn't what you can make wonderful!" Or..."I'm glad you finally got here-I knew you would eventually."
Your belief comes not from reason, but from the instinct that humans have to believe in the supernatural. This is called an "archetype" and it's something that science has helped us understand. We accept archetypes as true because they
feel true, and your post illustrates this. There is no empirical observation of the real universe to substantiate anything you say, merely your own feelings.
Man's uniquely large forebrain gives him the unique ability to override instincts with reasoned and learned behavior. The history of civilization is a ten thousand year effort to do just that, starting with the pack-social instinct that restricted us to living in small clans of hunter-gatherers.
Civilization has made colossal progress since then. But the instinct that stands in the way now is the instinct to believe in the supernatural. Religion today--as it has many times in the past--threatens to destroy civilization. In fact, the forces of Abrahamic religion have already destroyed three civilizations: Egypt, Aztec and Inca. Your own beloved religion, Catholicism, was responsible for obliterating the indigenous civilization in North America. The Olmec/Maya/Aztec civilization was an irreplaceable treasure that is lost forever. The Olmecs were the only people on earth who managed to build and maintain a civilization without draft animals. The things we could have learned from their descendants about human ingenuity, technology and philosophy could have revolutionized the world. Instead, your people burned their libraries because they were "heathens." You should be ashamed of your religion and make every effort to free yourself from its barbaric evil nature, not be proud and smug about it.
And the last thing on earth you should be doing is to evangelize it to other people. Any educational system that suppresses this cancer from spreading is doing a good job.
The only way we can continue to maintain and advance civilization is to take the next step, and overcome our instinct for religion with reason and learning.
Religion makes people feel really good, right. So does killing people they hate, stealing things they can't afford to buy, and taking heroin. You have to rise above this, dude. Use your reason and learning to transcend your primitive Stone Age instinct to believe in religion, as so many of us have been able to do.