you're dead but think you're alive but you're actually alive and you think, fuck what's going on? And then you take a sip of the golden nectar and the cycle begins once again and you think, oh for fuck's sake... time... time... let's not get into that shit again. You know, when you feel like that and then you realise that being dead ain't that hot so might as well be alive and just think that you're dead from time to time, even if you're not and, well...