hi guys, i want to share a scary personal experience with you all in hopes of finding out more...
one night, about maybe 3 months ago, i was just in my room, on the comp, when i began feeling a strange feeling. i didnt really give it much thought, because i get strange feelings sometimes- but i did notice it was unusually strange feeling. anyways, i looked around my room in paranoia but of course nothing there-
i then decided to get into bed and try and go to sleep. for some reason my eyes focuses on a Lamp that was on in my room (yea i usually sleep with a light on haha) Now, i kept staring at the light bulb, bright as ever- and i didnt blink. you know when you look at a light bulb or bright light and squint your eyes, the light beams kind of bend and move and shoot out all crazy? (i know someone knows what im talking about) well- as i was staring at the light, its beams began bending, but i didnt think i was squinting my eyes. The beams Bend more and more intense and i was watching it with intrigue (i like hallucinations :m: ) and for about, i'd say 1 minute maybe 2- the Beams danced and shifted all around while my room and everything else began to blur...
THEN, all of a sudden- the beams STOPPED, like they FROZE in their position. my eyes felt very very strange, as if the pupils were super dialated or something. Right when this happened its like evrything froze- and right there, where i was staring (inside the still light beams) i saw the most amazing thing:
i saw (what i thought were) ATOMs or ELECTRONs, swirling around in the most magnificent ways imagineable. i saw electrons on their paths, the so-called energy circle or whatever, i saw some electrons would swirl around one, then zoom on to another one and swirl around it. This was very amusing and i stared in awe.
then something happened. a shift from amusing to scary.
after a few minutes i made myself snap out of the stare because it was kind of scaring me, my eyes locked and all that. but something was strange, as i lay there in bed, i felt my breathing becoming very deep, and more proloned. my breaths got very long and spaced in between, and i began feeling worried. the breathing got slower and slower and i remember wondering "why is this happening? why cant i breathe right?" but it continued to slow down. my body began feeling unusual around this time now. I felt my HEART BEATING SLOWER ALSO NOW, sort of following the breathing. The breathing got SO SLOW that after gasping a few times, it COMPLETELY STOPPED. i swear, my air stopped COMPLETELY, and i could not breathe, or even GASP for air. I was terrified at this point, and this is when i tried to move my arm up to my neck and i had no control of my body. I layed there, and all i could do was listen to my heart beat- and it was beating very irregular. The beats started getting slower, just like the breathing- more spaced between beats and more deeper, lower-pitched beating. at this point (after my breath stopped) my head had a sort of dizzy feeling accompanied by my bodies EXTRA_HEAVY feeling. felt like gravity got 100x stronger and was pulling me into my bed.
OK- this is the scary part. My heart's beating got so slow that it too also STOPPED. i rememebr this clearly- i was very worried because my heart was beating slower and slower- And i felt that last beat, and when i didnt hear another one, i got scared. i felt like gasping but could not even move, i felt my body was worried also, in a alarmed state. but i could not do anything. i lay there hopelessly and for some reason i heard the song that was playing on my computer- it was a song that said somethin about DYING/LIVING. and i remember thinking to myself finally:
"omygod, this is it, i am dying, and this is how it ends."
i closed my eyes and didnt try to fight it. as i closed my eyes i felt like a ringing noise getting closer and closer, much like when your in a dizzy state or wake up from a blackout/faint. this feeling crept on me, and at one point, i felt it took over. BOOM. i was out. comepletely black,no sound, nothing. i thought i was dying, so i thought i had died somehow.
<-----time lapse here------->
im unable to say how long i was out, but it seemed that not even 5 minutes after the blackout, I JUMPED UP AND GASPED FOR AIR! it was like i was drowning, and i just got out of the water, i was gasping for a few moments, but i felt wierd. i felt like someone was near me, something. I dont know why i think this, but i also vision it. i felt this vision a SPLIT second before i had woke up gasping for air.
I saw a lady , who seemed angelic, come down and ever-so gently kiss me.
i have a feeling that someone came down and lifted me from this crazy spell, if it wasnt death.
checking the times, i noticed that close to half an hour had past since the last time i check, when i myself felt like 5 or 10 minutes had passed. im not sure of all this but i wanted to spill it out to someone in hopes of finding out more. i tried telling the story to friends but they either got scared or dont really think much of it. one friend said that he theorizes that perhaps i "fainted" while laying down, what do you all think ?
one night, about maybe 3 months ago, i was just in my room, on the comp, when i began feeling a strange feeling. i didnt really give it much thought, because i get strange feelings sometimes- but i did notice it was unusually strange feeling. anyways, i looked around my room in paranoia but of course nothing there-
i then decided to get into bed and try and go to sleep. for some reason my eyes focuses on a Lamp that was on in my room (yea i usually sleep with a light on haha) Now, i kept staring at the light bulb, bright as ever- and i didnt blink. you know when you look at a light bulb or bright light and squint your eyes, the light beams kind of bend and move and shoot out all crazy? (i know someone knows what im talking about) well- as i was staring at the light, its beams began bending, but i didnt think i was squinting my eyes. The beams Bend more and more intense and i was watching it with intrigue (i like hallucinations :m: ) and for about, i'd say 1 minute maybe 2- the Beams danced and shifted all around while my room and everything else began to blur...
THEN, all of a sudden- the beams STOPPED, like they FROZE in their position. my eyes felt very very strange, as if the pupils were super dialated or something. Right when this happened its like evrything froze- and right there, where i was staring (inside the still light beams) i saw the most amazing thing:
i saw (what i thought were) ATOMs or ELECTRONs, swirling around in the most magnificent ways imagineable. i saw electrons on their paths, the so-called energy circle or whatever, i saw some electrons would swirl around one, then zoom on to another one and swirl around it. This was very amusing and i stared in awe.
then something happened. a shift from amusing to scary.
after a few minutes i made myself snap out of the stare because it was kind of scaring me, my eyes locked and all that. but something was strange, as i lay there in bed, i felt my breathing becoming very deep, and more proloned. my breaths got very long and spaced in between, and i began feeling worried. the breathing got slower and slower and i remember wondering "why is this happening? why cant i breathe right?" but it continued to slow down. my body began feeling unusual around this time now. I felt my HEART BEATING SLOWER ALSO NOW, sort of following the breathing. The breathing got SO SLOW that after gasping a few times, it COMPLETELY STOPPED. i swear, my air stopped COMPLETELY, and i could not breathe, or even GASP for air. I was terrified at this point, and this is when i tried to move my arm up to my neck and i had no control of my body. I layed there, and all i could do was listen to my heart beat- and it was beating very irregular. The beats started getting slower, just like the breathing- more spaced between beats and more deeper, lower-pitched beating. at this point (after my breath stopped) my head had a sort of dizzy feeling accompanied by my bodies EXTRA_HEAVY feeling. felt like gravity got 100x stronger and was pulling me into my bed.
OK- this is the scary part. My heart's beating got so slow that it too also STOPPED. i rememebr this clearly- i was very worried because my heart was beating slower and slower- And i felt that last beat, and when i didnt hear another one, i got scared. i felt like gasping but could not even move, i felt my body was worried also, in a alarmed state. but i could not do anything. i lay there hopelessly and for some reason i heard the song that was playing on my computer- it was a song that said somethin about DYING/LIVING. and i remember thinking to myself finally:
"omygod, this is it, i am dying, and this is how it ends."
i closed my eyes and didnt try to fight it. as i closed my eyes i felt like a ringing noise getting closer and closer, much like when your in a dizzy state or wake up from a blackout/faint. this feeling crept on me, and at one point, i felt it took over. BOOM. i was out. comepletely black,no sound, nothing. i thought i was dying, so i thought i had died somehow.
<-----time lapse here------->
im unable to say how long i was out, but it seemed that not even 5 minutes after the blackout, I JUMPED UP AND GASPED FOR AIR! it was like i was drowning, and i just got out of the water, i was gasping for a few moments, but i felt wierd. i felt like someone was near me, something. I dont know why i think this, but i also vision it. i felt this vision a SPLIT second before i had woke up gasping for air.
I saw a lady , who seemed angelic, come down and ever-so gently kiss me.
i have a feeling that someone came down and lifted me from this crazy spell, if it wasnt death.
checking the times, i noticed that close to half an hour had past since the last time i check, when i myself felt like 5 or 10 minutes had passed. im not sure of all this but i wanted to spill it out to someone in hopes of finding out more. i tried telling the story to friends but they either got scared or dont really think much of it. one friend said that he theorizes that perhaps i "fainted" while laying down, what do you all think ?
